Living the life of a traveller is proving harder than I thought. Even though the little nest I had made myself in the ruins of Tau station wasn't cracked up to much at least it was a base for me. They say home is where the heart is, and I'm trying to live by that, I really am, but its difficult not having an actual place to call my own. I've decided to stay on this current station for a bit and have rented a guest room, but even the word guest just makes me feel like an outsider, reminding me everyday that I don't belong. Decorating and making it feel more like my space also just feels pointless. Just creating extra weight for me when I inevitably move on. It's not like I can even go back to the ruins of Tau now, even if I wanted to, there's nothing there for me now.
Owning my own ship for now stays a seemingly impossible dream; cycles in the future. Saving a few thousand credits for an engineering course at university is hard enough let alone the hundreds of thousands it takes to get a ship.
At least I've started progressing a bit with my career. I managed to make some repairs to a ship today (even if it was under the watchful eye of a senior technician). I feel like I'm learning more and more everyday but before I move on I've got to undertake some self improvement. Although I do call myself somewhat of a pacifist I'm not an idiot. I know what its like out there, I need to be able to look after myself.